These late term losses are really getting to me. Natalie, Flotsam, Our Own Creation, and others….my friend also lost all three of her triplets a week before Christmas and she was well into her 2nd trimester. Why do these things happen? It is so fucking depressing. Everyone always says – you made it past the first trimester – you can relax now! But then something like this happens. Watch me worry when I have never even been pregnant, but I cannot help myself. I worry so much that if (when) I DO get pregnant, that I will be a big, giant ball of stress. The whole time. After trying so long, putting so much time, energy, blood, sweat and tears (not to mention all the cash) into this, to lose it all is such a horrifying thought. I don’t even know if I could survive it. If a few BFNs have crushed me so, how would I be able to get through something this tragic? These women are awe inspiring, so strong. I am so sad. My heart is breaking for them.
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That on top of my phantom “symptoms”. Sore boobs (check), upset tummy (mostly the poops, but check), running hotter than usual (check), weird pains/twinges in my abdomen (check). Yay, don’t you just love progesterone supplements!?!?
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I have to change the topic. Last night I was surfing cable and came across a show called “The 100 most shocking moments” or something like that. Something lame, but I stopped to take a peek. By the time I started watching, they were already at the top 3. Number 3 and number 2 – I barely remember. But number 1 was hilarious! It was a clip from the Newlywed Game – remember that one? Bob Eubanks asked the question of one of the wives, “What is the most unusual place you have ever felt like making whoopie”. And the woman said, “My asshole?” OMG, I almost choked on my piece of cherry pie!!! The poor husband’s answer was, “In the back seat of the car”. LOL.
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When we had to change all our clocks, PT was a day late and wanted to change the time on her watch. She asked me what time it was, and I said, “Let’s call POP-CORN”! I hadn’t called that in a long time, and PT was like, “What the heck”? So I told her to call and she dialed on speaker phone. And guess what — there was a recording that said the service was discontinued in September 2007! It is the end of an era. I can’t believe you can’t call POP-CORN anymore. Then I had to explain that we used to be able to call POP-CORN and get the exact time. I guess now that everyone has cell phones with times that are set by satellite, POP-CORN is obsolete. I feel so old.
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I made the best dinner the other night – it is very Atkins friendly, which I thought about after the fact (doesn’t matter because I am not doing Atkins, but I thought that people that are on Atkins would enjoy it too!) I took portabello mushrooms and removed the stems carefully and peeled the brown skin off. Then I put them face up, and spread pesto on them. Then put a layer of baby spinach, put some mozzarella cheese, chopped tomato, chopped green onion, and some cooked tiger shrimp that I cut into thirds. I put them in a high oven until they were all bubbly and browned a little bit. It was like a pizza, but instead of crust, it was mushroom on the bottom. You could do it with any ingredients you like. YUM! I served it with a salad – and the whole thing took about 15 minutes.
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I was at the grocery store the other day, and I saw a Cosmo magazine (I think it was Cosmo, maybe it was something else…) and one of the titles of the articles on the cover said, “Your Vee-Jay-Jay: New Facts about your girlie parts”. Or something like that. WHAT? Who writes these things!
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Okay, off to agility class with the doggy! Have a good night everyone.