Tell me something I didn’t know.
I got my IVF report in the mail yesterday. I don’t have it in front of me right now, but here are the basic points:
**They gave me a higher dose of stims than the average patient
**Despite this, my egg retrieval only produced 7 eggs (expected 10-14)
**All 7 fertilized (expected 65-80% fertilization) – better than expected
**None of the embryos developed “normally” – they were slow to grow and fragmented
**Since none of the 3 embryos implanted, they were not viable
**Conclusion – POOR EGG QUALITY CAUSED THE FAILURE
So, TW’s sperm is probably fine, since all 7 eggs fertilized. It is so shocking to me that this whole time, it was probably MY problem, not TW’s. For the last 4 years, until we met with the IVF clinic, no one ever pointed the finger in my direction. It is my rotten, cracked, stinky, old eggs.
I feel so screwed. So totally and completely screwed. The end of the letter stated that I am still a candidate for IVF (gee, thanks!) and that I have a 20% chance of having a live birth. That seems highly optimistic to me.
The only bright side is that my acupuncture treatments (supposedly) can help with egg quality after three months of treatment. My first IVF attempt was after only 2 months of acupuncture. Maybe there is something she can do to help. Once we go for our 2nd attempt, I will have 4 months of acupuncture treatment under my belt. She has also added some herbs that she has found to be helpful for egg quality.
I am already starting to have a mind frame shift, I can feel it. I am imagining my life without any kids, prepping myself for it. Because right now, it feels like the inevitable.