IVF Report – Conclusions

Tell me something I didn’t know.

I got my IVF report in the mail yesterday. I don’t have it in front of me right now, but here are the basic points:

**They gave me a higher dose of stims than the average patient
**Despite this, my egg retrieval only produced 7 eggs (expected 10-14)
**All 7 fertilized (expected 65-80% fertilization) – better than expected
**None of the embryos developed “normally” – they were slow to grow and fragmented
**Since none of the 3 embryos implanted, they were not viable

So, TW’s sperm is probably fine, since all 7 eggs fertilized. It is so shocking to me that this whole time, it was probably MY problem, not TW’s. For the last 4 years, until we met with the IVF clinic, no one ever pointed the finger in my direction. It is my rotten, cracked, stinky, old eggs.

I feel so screwed. So totally and completely screwed. The end of the letter stated that I am still a candidate for IVF (gee, thanks!) and that I have a 20% chance of having a live birth. That seems highly optimistic to me.

The only bright side is that my acupuncture treatments (supposedly) can help with egg quality after three months of treatment. My first IVF attempt was after only 2 months of acupuncture. Maybe there is something she can do to help. Once we go for our 2nd attempt, I will have 4 months of acupuncture treatment under my belt. She has also added some herbs that she has found to be helpful for egg quality.

I am already starting to have a mind frame shift, I can feel it. I am imagining my life without any kids, prepping myself for it. Because right now, it feels like the inevitable.


11 Responses to “IVF Report – Conclusions”

  1. vcoc Says:

    I actually had a very similar experience, although my eggs were so shitty they didn’t really even fertilize. No fault of the sperm they say. For my 2nd IVF I did acu and took wheatgrass and dhea, both of which are said to help egg quality. The dhea for sure, and maybe the wheatgrass (can’t remember) both also take at least 3 months to take effect. Getting that report is no fun. I’m sorry you’re feeling so down about the potential of having a baby, but I will keep my hopes up for you!

  2. yodasmistress Says:

    Crap. I’m not sure what to say.

    I don’t honestly believe that you’re so old that you’re eggs are inconceivable. I’m not an RE. But logically, looking around at how many people I know IRL who are your age get pg naturally, that’s what I think.

    Also, just because you ARE aging and maybe now your eggs aren’t as spectacular as they were 3 years ago, doesn’t mean that has been the cause of your IF all along. I mean really, TW’s sperm could have been the primary cause all along… but now after these years of TTC you are a little older and so your eggs are being looked at more carefully. But logically, if his sperm has been all it could be, perhaps yo would have conceived naturally 3 or 5 years ago when your eggs were… ahem… a bit less “cracked, stinky, old”.

    Does what I’m saying make sense? IVF changes all the rules. Sperm that would be useless in a natural setting can be winners in an IVF (especially with ICSI) situation. That doesn’t mean it wasn’t a problem previously. And just because your eggs aren’t as wonderful as they could be now, doesn’t mean they were the problem all along.

    And in any case, something like 20% of all IF is a result of problems with both parties. That’s what we have. And TBH, I rather like it that way. Less blame and less guilt. ๐Ÿ˜‰

    Lotsa love darling!

  3. swim Says:

    “old eggs”… I’ve heard that before. It’s heart breaking, but not impossible to conceive with your own eggs. It’s difficult to know anything about your egg quality until IVF as it eliminates the MF from the scenario.

    Apparently I have old, cracked and stinky eggs too. I’m changing clinics to one that deals more with diminished ovarian reserve in the hopes that they can help me and my old eggs. I’ve also heard good things about DHEA. I’m doing a lot of research and going to really quiz my new RE about all of my options and the best way to increase my egg quality.

    Let’s hope that we both have future success. ๐Ÿ™‚

  4. lub Says:

    This does suck. I am sorry and very hopeful that Accupuncture helps. Thinking of you…

  5. Amanda Says:

    I don’t have any advice or knowledge to offer. But I am horribly sorry that things look this way, now. I have a lot of hope to offer, though!


  6. Pamela Jeanne Says:

    That report could have been mine. Sigh. Sort of clubs you over the head doesn’t it? I know how you’re feeling. We went for two full IVFs and an FET and almost made it to IVF #3 before deciding not to proceed. Follow what’s in your heart…it’s never let me down. Wishing you peace and clarity of thinking my friend.

  7. Kona Says:

    I don’t know what to say except that sometimes medical experts can be wrong. Sure, maybe you have some hurdles to jump, but I still believe it can happen for you. I’m sorry this discouraging report is casting shadows over your hopes & dreams. ;-( I still hope and pray for you to become pregnant very soon.


  8. Trace Says:

    What a crappy report!

  9. sarasp Says:

    Not inevitable!

    Makes me grateful I have never had to stare at a report pinpointing my eggs as the problem (even though the docs have certainly hinted at it and, with D’s A+ semen analysis we can do our own deductions). Aren’t they aware that such a report would sting?

    Good luck with the accupuncture.

  10. Ashley Bass Says:

    I hope you had a wonderful Christmas and having a Happy New Year!

  11. Chris Says:

    Oh where oh where have you been? And are you OK? Hope your New Year is happy so far.

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