NaComLeavMo

I am digging NaComLeavMo. Now, if I could only get the code to work for the image on my sidebar. Any tips?

Thanks to all for visiting my blog from NaComLeavMo. I Luuuuuurve getting comments. And I am enjoying “meeting” more of you every day!

Who…Me?

Who….Me? Ashley nominated me for the Rockin’ Girl Blogger award. Thank you Ashley! I am so humbly honored. Ashley was one of my first readers. I was wondering why my stats spiked (it looks like my blog ovulated today)! I read Ashley’s blog daily and if you haven’t been over there, I would highly recommend.

So in turn, my job is to nominate 5 more bloggers for the Rockin’ Girl Blogger award! I am really new to the blogosphere, so please forgive me if I nominate someone who was already nominated.

1. Heather w/ BigPandMe - Heather was also one of my first readers. I frequent her blog - it is well written and very funny. Her style is also very calming to me. She was the first one to receive and review the traveling DVD. You should check out her last post.
2. Jenna w/ Inconceivable Journey - Jenna was recently on Oprah, featured as “Struggling with Infertility” along with other 30-something women “struggling” with other things in their lives. There is a very interesting string of posts on her blog right now. The Traveling DVD mentioned above is a copy of the show. If you are interested in joining the club to view the DVD and comment on it, you should check out her site! She wrote a book with her husband called, “The Empty Picture Frame” which is available through her website as well.
3. Amy R. w/When Will You Have Kids is my next pick. She is my kindred spirit. Look at her blog. We are leading parallel lives - but she is just a bit ahead of me on the road.
4. Lara w/ Little Beans 4 Me just got some horrible news after her latest IVF attempt. She is a trooper. Please go see her and give her some love.
5. Zee w/ This is Not What I Ordered is hilarious, and she is an extremely talented writer, going through many obstacles to try and achieve the same thing we are all going for. Read her post called “We Are All In the Same Boat”, it is so real and telling and true.

I hope that after nominating these awesome bloggers, you will still stick around!!

Puppies don’t worry

This morning my puppy jumped on the bed at about 3am and snuggled against my stomach, resting his head on my hip. Usually he is not that snuggly anymore — he was a total love bug when he was a small pup, but somehow he has gotten more aloof. The usual routine is when we go to bed, he leaves us and goes to the couch in the living room. Then at about 5am, he ends up at the foot of our bed.

Being a puppy (a well cared for puppy) is such a zen state of being. I am quite sure he lives in the moment, he doesn’t worry about where his next meal is coming from, let alone what his chances of conceiving would be (if he weren’t snipped that is). I need to take a lesson from my puppy.

So I enjoyed the warm, furriness of him snuggled up against my tummy. There is nothing like it. I felt his warm breath and heard his tiny snores. I imagined his positive and happy energy going straight into my ovaries, priming them to get pregnant.

Yesterday my OB told me that my ovaries looked perfect and that I would be in very good shape to get pregnant this month. She said to try and that she hopes to see me on her OB list in September. I know that the chances of this are slim to none with the male factor issue, but a girl can dream, right?

Songs

You can tell a lot about a person by listening to their iPod. What’s on mine? Here are just a few gems:

• Freedom by George Michael
• Lady Marmalade from the Moulin Rouge Soundtrack
• Don’t Let Me Get Me by Pink
• 100 Years by Five for Fighting
• Suddenly I See by KT Tunstall
• Breathe Me by Sia (for any of your Six Feet Under fans, it was the very final song on the very final episode!)
• Everlong by the Foo Fighters
• Why Can’t I by Liz Phair
• If You Were Here by the Thompson Twins (from Sixteen Candles!)

Just a small sampling. What does it tell you about me? I have no idea.

“This is the Day…”

You know that song by The The: “This is the Day”? They use it in the M&M commercials (there is an M&M in everyone — not sure I get the tag line, but I have to admit that I did go on the M&M website and make an M&M that had a vague resemblance)…

Anyway, I was riding home from work and the song came on my iPod. The song gives me hope. Even though I got my period today and my dreams were dashed yet again, for the FOURTEENTH month in a row, the song kicks my spirits into high gear. I got to hang on to something, people.

Well, you didn’t wake up this morning because you didn’t go to bed
You were watching the whites of your eyes turn red
The calendar on your wall is ticking the days off
You’ve been reading some old letters
You smile and think how much you’ve changed
All the money in the world couldn’t buy back those days

You pull back your curtains
And the sun burns into your eyes
You watch a plane flying
Across a clear blue sky
This is the day
Your life will surely change
This is the day
When things fall into place

You could’ve done anything If you’d wanted
And all your friends and family think that you’re lucky
But the side of you they’ll never see
Is when you’re left alone with the memories
That hold your life together … like glue

You pull back your curtains
And the sun burns into your eyes
You watch a plane flying
Across a clear blue sky
This is the day
Your life will surely change
This is the day
When things fall into place

This is the day your life will surely change
This is the day your life will surely change
This is the day your life will surely change
This is the day your life will surely change

Puppy Love

Doggie”C” –on watch. She was always on the look out. May she rest in peace.

Have you noticed that those TTC #1 are in love with their furry babies, maybe more than the rest of the general population? Some people don’t get it, but I literally feel like I gave birth to my puppy. Maybe that will change when I actually have a human baby, but for now, the connection I feel to my puppy is so strong. I think about him all the time, I feel a pull to come home to him, I worry about him constantly. Is that normal or totally neurotic? I lost my blue eyed doggie “C” to cancer in January. It was the most horrible thing i have ever experienced to date. She went through two surgeries, chemo, radiation, and acupuncture. I did everything I could and it was definitely time for her to say goodbye to this world. I still cry about her almost every day, even with puppy “S” in my life now. I did not get puppy “S” to replace doggie “C” — no way. But the house was so empty and quiet without some furry love, especially with TW gone so much. I volunteer at a rescue org and I met puppy “S” and just had to take him home. So he is my love bug, but doggie “C” is still deep in my heart and always will be. You gotta love the doggies.

Here is Puppy “S” when we first got him.